Sunday, February 19, 2006
7:46 PM;
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
akalain mo nga namang pebrero 15 na ngayon at dumaan na ang araw ng mga puso. kamusta namang hindi lang isa kundi tatlo ang date ko. orayt the gayuma/antipolo escapade. kamusta namang dapat ay sasabit lang ako sa choco kiss o di kaya'y "mag-hale". pero hindi, because the aika is very kaladkarin, i was able to go to the ultimate date place on a valentine's night without an actual date. whohoah. panalo itetch.
at kamusta rin namang marami ka palang matutunan kapag you're speaking in tongues. behold. like that red-haired girl, the frances is very insightful with her comment regarding giving your 100%. it got me thinking and then she was right that you can't expect people to give the same amount of effort you gave. so therefore, the aika's solution is not to give your best. because then you will just get disappointed and then you'll get hurt and frustrated. but then, this is actually wrong and i'm seemingly talking nonsense but then i do make sense right? so somewhat this is all very labo with all of us speaking in the LEO VALENCIA accent. so come on now. what's up with this? ano beh? haha. i'm fucking USELESS. lalala.
i'm crazily bangag and we have a shoot later. and come on now, we don't have equipment. how cool is that? my artistic abilities are being zapped. so the jerwin should just make do with whatever crap i produce. after all, my sig sheet is so pangit anyway. oh no no no. aika should stop being bitter. being ampalaya is not worth it. i just can't help it. and now i cannot think straight anymore. i am thinking in tongues now. oh come on. kamusta naman the aika? hala hala hala.
oh..and yeah. i can't wait to see the pics with the captions, "asan ka bebs 1, asan ka bebs 2..til infinity" and the "waiting in vain for bebs" series as well. so come on, i'm making bulgar to the whole world. haha. yes..because you should look at my henna. haller? must add brown to make it safeR in some way.
people reading this who are not from masscomm will think i'm crazy. and i probably am. kamusta naman? hahaha..should've been able to order crazy for you.
8:33 AM;
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
i CAN'T believe it.
you're leaving. just when..just when i'm starting to rely on your presence..of having you around. it sucks knowing i just met you. and the moments i could've spent with you in the future will NEVER happen. just because you're leaving. you told me just yesterday i should learn to let go. who would've thought my ipod memory can actually be equated to YOU? *sigh*
don't go..
hahaha. asa pa ako. if ever you would stay, it most probably wouldn't be for ME anyway.
my heart is now breaking. farewell.
***
i know things can NEVER be. the way you look at me makes me feel like pond scum. or the bacteria that feeds on the pond scum. *sigh* yet i still hope..that one day, after ten years or so, you would want to settle down AND be with me. i KNOW we'll see each other again. hopefully by that time,
I would be the one you were looking for.
8:15 AM;
Saturday, February 04, 2006
it's my 100th post. haha. kaso naman since 2004 pa ang blog na ito. kamusta naman un?
hello to you. i know you don't read my blog anymore. tapos na ang ugnayan natin. pero kahit na. this is my song for you.
TANING- Imago
Sa'n mapupulot ang pag-asa
*sa'n nga ba? nawawalan na ako eh!*may katuwiran ba ang sala
ngiti ko ang iyong galak
*it's the other way around*langit ko ang iyong kandungan
*IKAW ang nagdudulot ng saya sa'kin :(*Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka
*kahit isang araw lang*abiso ng pusong bulag na humahanga
Chorus:
Tama bang aminin na nating may taning
tong pag-ibig natin
*may taning na ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo*dakila man walang kasaysayang kakapit
sa bulag na pag-ibig
Sa'n hihingi ng patawad
kung walang dalang dahilan
tangis ko ang iyong pagluha
nais ko ang iyong kalayaan
*kelangan na kitang tigilan*Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka
abiso ng pusong bulag na humahanga
Chorus(2x)
Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka
abiso ng pusong bulag na humahanga
tama bang aminin na nating may taning..........
7:42 PM;
AHAHAHAHAHA!!! :D
i KNEW it!
tunay nga talagang mabenta ang mga taong "manyak". kaya naman pala tinatanggihan ang
survivor.
***
what is up with my valentine's day date hunting?
my 2 prospects are GONE. kawawa naman ako. talagang dateless nga ako on the 14th.
ung una, i mentioned it to him. at sabi naman niya, "ayos lang yan. hindi kailangan ng date para maging masaya." so does this mean he's out of the running? at hindi ko na pwedeng asahan na IF i-ask out ko siya ay may posibilidad na mag-date nga kami?
ung pangalawa, wala na. he doesn't like me anymore. hahaha. tsk tsk.
so..self pity nanaman ba ito?
***
it's amazing how i fall for guys who write well. hanep pare. ang galing mo. pag ikaw nagsulat, tagos. naaabot ang kaibuturan ng aking pagkatao. astig ka talaga. i am impressed once again.
***
sometimes, you feel so strongly about something that you reach its peak too early, too soon. suddenly, you're falling back down and you can't go back to the blissful moments of ascension. is it my fault that i immersed myself completely into you? or yours for pushing me away?
i have become so used to liking you. life will not make sense anymore if i don't. please don't end this for me.
12:17 PM;
Thursday, February 02, 2006
heto nanaman ako..online nanaman, nagpopost nanaman. tas ano nanaman ba topic ko? syempre ang paborito kong topic sa buong mundo. ang aking kasawian. pero maiba tayo sa post na 'to. mangangarap na lang muna ako.
***
aabangan
kita.
ikaw ang talang mamasdan ko sa kalayuan..
habang patuloy kang nawawala sa aking paningin..
naglalaho sa kalangitan.
pero
patuloy parin kitang mamasdan.
kahit wala ka na. ang lugar na iyong nilisan ay titingalain ko
parin.
darating rin ang gabi.
makikita kitang
muli.
at sa pagkakataong iyon, liliwanag nanaman ang aking mundo.
kahit sandali lang. kahit
alam ko mawawala ka muli.
at darating ang panahong
hindi mo na bibigyang ningning ang kadiliman ng aking gabi.
masasanay rin ako sa takipsilim na wala ka. pero
sana, minsan,
kahit isang saglit sa hinaharap, maalala mo ring
may nag-iintay parin sa'yong liwanag, nangangapa sa dilim.
***
kamusta namang HINDI daw magdadrama?
eto na nga. eto na talaga. pangarap kong manligaw ng isang tao. particularly isang bading. take note. HINDI BABAE o LALAKI ok? BADING. ndi ako sure kung swak ung bi. pag-iisipan ko pa. pero anyway, syempre, kasama na rin dun na sana sagutin nya ako noh? pero ayun nga, gusto ko mabigyan ng pagkakataon na manligaw. ung ligaw na napapanood mo lang sa sine. ung tipong naiiyak ka at napapa-awww sa sobrang pagkasweet. un ang nais kong gawin. ung ibigay ang sarili ko kahit nakakahiya, kahit mukhang tanga. pero astig rin kaya. kung kaya ng lalaki mapaibig ang isang babae sa simpleng text at date sa kung san mang "wala lang" na lugar, gusto kong mag-effort. ung tipong ndi mo maimagine na may taong gagawa nun para sa'yo. iyon ang gusto kong gawin. ung ultimate dream ng taong balak kong ligawan times ten. parang ganun.
so meron na akong game plan. kaso nga lang, wala namang liligawan. ndi naman sa mahirap maghanap ng WORTHY candidate. kaso sana, ung kahit pa'no, may pag-asa. or at least i-eentertain ka. ndi naman ako takot mabusted eh. naman. kaya nga gusto kong manligaw eh. syempre masarap maramdaman ung challenge, ung effort, at ung triumph. pero astig rin ung sakit, ung pagkasawi knowing na ibinigay mo ang lahat. ibig sabihin, hindi talaga meant. pero ndi masasabing nagkulang ka. ndi lang nya tinanggap.
kaya kung mga may suhestyon kayo para sa aking pangarap, i would so appreciate them. salamat salamat. :D
10:06 PM;
ala una na pala. meaning huwebes na. at nung martes ko pa narealize na DALAWANG LINGGO na lang..valentine's day na. haha. ang babaw. imbes na isipin na malamang hell week nanaman un dahil sa acads..at siyempre final interview na rin. pero ndi. pinoproblema ko ang valentine's, particularly ang aking pagiging dateless wonder.
kamusta naman ang mga kasagutan ng mga tao ano?
ate ayen: "papabigyan kita kay chico ng flowers" (si chico ay aso namin. orayt.)
kuya jec: "may ipapadate ako sa'yo. nakapink siya. mature. blah blah blah.." (kuya..kung si richard, wag na lang.)
mia: "go out with an old friend" (my best friend is currently dating my ex boylet..so asa pa ano? and NO. i will NOT ask out past flings/crushes)
*sigh*
where do you get a DECENT date in less than two weeks? valentine's day falls on a TUESDAY pa naman. at oo, walang pasok ang karamihan sa mga taga-UP, kasama na ako. SAYANG ang pagkakataon.
naman. i want to go out. sige na. kung worth it ka, my treat pa. basta, tara.
at oo nga pala. wala nang magbibigay sa'kin ng flowers. wala na ako sa manila.
*sigh*
1:09 AM;