for posterity's sake, i HAVE to keep my entry about poppert. but then, he's probably the least person i should be blogging about. oh well..it's over. i've learned my lesson. no more guys with to-die-for singing voices. i just end up feeling like crap. it's totally not worth it.
so wait, why am i bothering to blog once again?
i feel like i ought to write something. i must get this off my chest. honestly, i feel lousy being in diliman. i should be happy. this is my world. or atleast it USED to be. i guess i can't go back. not now when manila has changed me in so many ways. yet, i am stuck. stuck in a course that isn't allowing me to reach my full human potential. stuck missing people that weren't there to make me change my mind about shifting. stuck loving some guy who's there while i'm here.
i feel so bad. it feels like i left for no logical reason at all. the tianx aren't even making the move worth it coz we hardly see each other. or maybe i just am clinging onto him, them? maybe that's why i feel so rotten all of a sudden.
maybe things could've worked out between us. but with me an hour away and their hectic sched, how can it? my only consolation is that i might not even recognize this feeling if i was back there.
yes, i'm ranting about this guy. i'm totally missing him. yet my troubles are just beginning. i was totally sure of myself. i thought since things didn't work out, i was over this other guy. but how can i explain this dull ache in my heart right now? argh..i guess you can never truly understand your own feelings..
anyone willing to help me forget my own issues? i am willing to listen, analyze and give advice regarding your love problems. i have credentials. i am a socio major. hehe..whokei, un lang. i would love to worry about your problems instead. sige na. hehe.