Saturday, December 25, 2004
this would probably one of my last posts coz i'm going to stop blogging again. i'd probably continue blogging once i (start making and) finish the tianx blog. i'm going to stop blogging about my life for one reason.
coz i don't want to read my posts after i wrote them and realize that once again, i ranted about his lack of concern about me. so since i expect he won't ever change the way he'd treat me, then i might as well stop now. so..that's it. after all, i started blogging again coz of him. so it's logical to stop coz of him too. haha.
it's going to be a cold cold christmas for me.
i guess i have psychic ability. i said things would change when he'd get back. i guess i'm right.
haha..ayoko na. ayoko na talaga kahit na mahal ko pa siya.
8:36 AM;
Sunday, December 12, 2004
since everyone's making their christmas wishlists, i might as well make my own. what do i really want? erhmm..let me see.
i want...
* a new phone (nokia 7260)
* a digital video camera
* the COMPLETE dvd set of Friends
* a new watch
* jacket
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* Kenzo for men (coz Kuya broke the bottle) and other men's perfume
(i'm gonna add more stuff..these are just the first things that come to mind)
* more time with the Tianx
* the option to shift to Film
* his friendship...*tear*
12:34 AM;
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
in line with all the typhoons our country has been experiencing lately, i'm on this trip of using my life as a metaphor of an island constantly bombarded by typhoons. so in short, i you don't understand, errr..well, intindihin niyo. you'll figure out what i'm taking about eventually anyhow. anyway, here goes.
it's still signal number 4 in aika-land right now. the super typhoon in my life is still there, hovering around everything i do. although i am somewhat fortunate to receive a smattering of rain here and there to parch the arid desert of my soul, the strong winds are uprooting whatever vegetation that has just bloomed. indeed, the devastation caused by the winds last wednesday, last friday and last night haunt me. still, aika-land manages to pick itself up from utter ruin and rebuild itself once again, eagerly anticipating the bursting of the clouds, the promise of rain.
yes, i'm setting myself up for misery. but then again, just a single raindrop can make me forget the intensity of the winds of that super typhoon. i know this is stupid. and i can NEVER expect a downpour. still, i am left with no choice but to hope for the coming of rain.
despite the fact that the super typhoon will be leaving soon, i can believe that maybe, while it's away, it would actually change direction and stay. and maybe then, aika-land would experience torrential rain at last.
on to other weather news, i wonder. why is it that the sight of certain tropical depressions causes me to break into a mega-watt smile but the sight of that much-awaited super typhoon causes me to run away and hide? i wonder.
9:18 PM;