Saturday, October 30, 2004
ok..i haven't been able to blog in the longest time. my stupid computer at home is against me unlike my computer sa condo. anyway, i was supposed to write this really really long entry that i drafted on paper. unfortunately, i'm really really lazy to type so i might as well just save that for my journal.
so what have i been up to the last few days?
october 22 to october 24, karls and i went to baguio with my parents. it was fun seeing my parents and kabarkada jive so well. at this point, mom totally adores karls. haha..
the trip going there was long coz of the jeepney strike in tarlac. in all fairness, karls and i were able to make use of the time catching up on evrything i missed since i moved to upm. then the 'serf' started texting me. it was hilarious. i mean, how totally 'trying hard to sound like he didn't know anything'. oh well, i was being really nice to him. i hope he appreciated that. the guy even gave me a call..really dense. tsk tsk. when we arrived in baguio, we ate lots of seafood which didn't agree with karls. so we ended up staying the whole afternoon and evening at home watching extra challenge, star circle quest, mulawin, star struck, it might be you, krystalla..and all those local primetime shows.
the next day was a day to remember. who would've thought that he'd text me "am HERE in baguio."? it was the most embarrassing experience i've had in a long time. first i had to endure the excruciating hours waiting for his reply. then my mom had to force me to actually call him. in the end, we did see each other. it was supposed to end there. but no. of course not. my mom just had to talk to him. oh well..at least he was nice about it. or so i wish to think. later on, karls and i hung out in padi's point baguio. can i just say orcs galore? there was even this middle-aged orc who tried to hit on us. i dismissed him with a wave of my hand and the words, "dun na lang po kayo." it was so funny. and karls and i were so evil.
after approximately three hours of sleep, karls and i had to get up to get ready for the trip home. the ride was ok. i had a comfortable time catching up on sleep. but orc fest still didn't end. even at the gas station, an orc ogled us. and after i brought karls to cubao, another orc tried to hit on me in galle. oh god. why do orcs keep noticing me while there's just this one guy i really really want?
next day, andrew and i went to upm. it was so nerve-wracking. when i computed all my grades, i found out i had to get a 1.25 or higher in soc sci to make it as a college scholar. the odds were against me but the world took pity on me decided to give me that much-needed 1.25..so my average is 1.73611111...haha! i made it. if i had gotten a 1.5, i could've kissed my college scholar dreams goodbye. btw andrew, i forgot to thank you. thanks for being really happy for me. thanks for understanding. you're the best talaga.
after my euphoria which by the way feels so much better than seeing him, i headed to katipunan. met up with the tianx and did our usual 18 gift shopping on 1,350 budget. made it with 50 pesos to spare. afterwards, i told my family the news. kuya's reaction was the greatest. he seemed genuinely happy for me. mommy was excited as well. daddy on the other hand regarded it as an ordinary everyday occurence. that hurt. majorly so. i hope he doesn't complain next sem if i won't be able to be a cs again. should've appreciated what he had..
the next day, mommy and i went shopping for the gown i'm going to wear to migs' debut. kuya tagged along but basically just had his hair cut. before going to g4, i checked on my pre-reg results. everything was approved. so meaning, it's another sem with andrew! yey..abscissa-ordinate parin! anyway, i found this really really pretty blue gown. it even suited me better than my prom gown. signs. haha..then mommy was feeling generous so she bought kuya and i perfume. i got the classic kenzo for men which actually smells like jean luc amsler, my favorite scent in the world. kuya got armani white for men.
yesterday was migs' debut. was so much fun! although there was this shocking incident at mia's when i dropped by, i pretty much enjoyed the whole night. migs and i even had the same material for my ball skirt and her gown. was funny! felt like it was MY debut. haha..i had such a great time picture taking with pola and karls plus our wild dances with kenji and even RICKY!!! harhar..and the ride home was pure evil joke time.
i actually would be feeling so happy if i just don't have this nagging thought in my head. i feel so evil. i mean, i shouldn't feel this way but i can't help it. now, i just want to avoid the whole thing but i absolutely can't. i need help!!!
later, the tianx are heading over to riva's for a sleepover. our tagaytay/batangas trip got cancelled coz of problems with transpo and parents. oh well..maybe next time we could all just go to baguio..or maybe visayas. haha..
after the sleepover at riva's, i'd head to quezon. then i have to be back for enrollment. then mom and i might go to baguio again. yes..i'm totally cramming my trips this sembreak. hehe!
that's what i've done these past few days. i'm happy for a everything but sad and scared about three things. i wish i knew what to feel. help!
7:02 AM;
Friday, October 22, 2004
well, for at least this weekend. i'm going to baguio. and that's just great. in fact, i can't imagine spending this weekend at home. i would simply go crazy with a computer next to me and him gone for the weekend.
andrew..hope you have a great weekend! i'm gonna miss talking to you..
eugene (haha! i KNOW you won't read this but so what?) thanks pare..
bye manila! yey!
7:03 PM;
If only it were that easy to ask the person you 'love' about his sexual preferences..
What if you 'love' this guy but you have suspicions regarding his sexuality? What if you hear and find out so many things regarding his past and present(?) with the same sex? What if you know in your heart that he really is bi and you swore you'd never fall for another one but at this point you're falling hard and fast for him? What if there's a part of you convinced that he's just being nice to you because he knows you admire him? What if he really is just this nice to all his admirers? What if you know you have an almost zero percent chance with him? What if you found out that he probably could like you if he wasn't into guys right now? What if you learned that even if he were into girls he still wouldn't go for you? What if you are just giving yourself false hopes? What if you are just assuming too many things about him? What if you're convinced that you do 'love' him? What do you do when the whole world is against your 'love' for him?
If only someone would answer these questions for me..
I guess I love him..
It's just that I have this phobia regarding relationships with bisexual men. My last relationship ended in a bust. Well, he had real problems with himself and it seemed like he was just using me to appear straight. I don't want to get involved with a person who has a lot of issues with himself. And more so, I don't ever want to feel that devastation of being replaced..for a guy. THAT hurt. TOTALLY.
Aside from these issues or bias or whatever regarding bisexual males..It's not as if I have this great chance with him. Come to think of it, I haven't heard about any girl from him. I should feel flattered coz he is taking the time to be nice to me. But then again, what if that's just it. He's just being nice and he's just being this way out of pity.
If only I could be "every little thing you wanted"..
I cannot expect anything from you.
I cannot hope that you would reciprocate whatever I'm feeling for you coz that would be selfish.
I can just love you from afar and hope that the world would allow me to do this. Silently, on my own.
Ok..this has NOTHING to do with HIM. Anyway, my mom and I were talking about my bro and this girl he used to like. I began singing, "Muling ibalik ang tamis ng pag-ibig.." Then we had this conversation.
My Mom: "Theme song mo rin yan eh.."
Aika: "Huh??? Kanino?"
My Mom: "Dun sa isa..ung taga-UST rin.."(with a teasing smile on her face)
The HELL!!! Please. I have long told myself I was over him. So Ma, please, get over him too. He will NEVER EVER be your son-in-law.
I'm sorry but I will not go back to that pathetic state of wanting him even if he's happily attached. YUCK. I'm glad I passed UP. We're not meant to be. Thank GOD for that. I hope my mom would stop her fantasies regarding that guy. It's just plain irritating. Erk. Hearing about it from her..I wanted to scream.
Stop Aika. Think happy thoughts..
4:19 AM;
Thursday, October 21, 2004
I remember way back in Grade 7. My memories of the south were of my cousins and I running around Festival mall, trying to join in on the "Spend a day with Parokya ni Edgar" contest. A few months later, it would be of my cousins and I going nuts over Teeth and watching their basketball game against PNE. In first year, it was of my ex-best friend and I watching a gig at Galo's now named something 119 as I found out just yesterday. Fast forward two years later and my memories were of my Ocho-Uno classmates and I getting excused from attending class, eating cheese pimiento sandwiches, cramming for our chemistry test the following day and trying to support Katz in the Digital LG contest. And who could ever forget the "guy with the brown bag" asking for the name of the "girl with the red ID lace"? My most recent memories of the south however, tarnished my perception of that faraway place worth traveling two hours for. It was that "date" or "meeting" or what-have-you with Chad that ruined the memories and ambiance of that place for me.
It was weird I managed to go there yesterday. First and foremost, it was
absolutely NOT a mom-supported gimmick. Second of all, it was just Pola and I. Not even one-fourth of the Tianx were with us. And third, honestly, I have
NEVER tried commuting THAT far.
Miraculously though, I am still able to blog about our experience without any losses, injuries or whatever else except for a bruise on my left thigh.
So what did happen? The strangest thing happened, actually. I mean, who would've guessed that we'd bump into those people in ATC on a TUESDAY, no less. I mean, we're all from Quezon City. What are the odds that we'll see them there? Maybe he really loves Pola that much that he's developed ESP regarding her whereabouts. Oh well...
As for the whole point of our adventure...it turned out
well.
Better than I expected. At this point, I
should be ecstatic. Or
at least be happy. I don't understand why I'm not. Maybe my defense mechanisms are acting up. It's
frustrating how I am
hindered from freely feeling what I really want to feel for the sake of protecting myself. I
need to let go and just enjoy the moment. After all, I was the one who did say that pain is inevitable.
I shouldn't stop myself from feeling. To be numb would mean I would never get hurt but then I would never feel exuberance as well. I have to let go. I just have to.
Quotable Quotes:
"A hurting heart is a loving heart. Don't hold back on love just because you've been hurt before.
What matters is that you have loved." -Andrew
"There is
no such thing as an impossible love. Be not intimidated by silence,
indifference or rejection. Take more risks. Seek love
even if you will often hear the word 'no', be defeated and feel rejected." - The Warrior of the Light
Siguro nga...mahal na YATA kita.
This
supposedly was my blog entry earlier. Then
something happened.
My beloved tutor started texting me about
him. Then I received this message:
"Narinig k lng s clsm8 k n may guy cyang ksama n nglalakad s malate. Tpos may hawak cyang blue magic. Thats it."
Then I started
crying. He could've left it at that. But my beloved tutor is
really the best. We talked for more or less
20 minutes on the cell phone so he could console me, make me understand and
spare my feelings. Ibang klase talaga. Now I'm even more confused than I was minutes ago.
At lalo akong nalungkot.
6:46 AM;
Saturday, October 16, 2004
i can't believe that the first sem is actually over and that i'm on sembreak right now. it went by too fast as though some things never really happened. oh well..i'm not going to dwell on the horrid details. let's just say that some things are better best forgotten..(haha..steps song. loser.)
we took our last two final exams this friday. the comm 1 final was long, but i guess i did alright. although the outline was difficult. the math 17 exam was alright as well. i just hope my grade would reach my expectations..
i know i said i'm not a nerdox who actually really cares about grades. but then again, there will always always be a part of me that would yearn for "esteem". kaya nga it's part of maslow's hierarchy of needs eh. since we're on the topic of grades, i got a 1.5 in history..ok, i'm happy but i wish i did better.
on to the sleepover. one thing is for sure.
i missed the tianx. i'm missing the tianx. and i will continue missing them coz ateneo will never be the right place for me.
i just wish i could be there. to
actually share their experiences and not just hear about the significant details afterwards. to hang out with them during breaks or have classes with them
instead of getting monthly gimmicks that are far too short.
a
part of me wishes that i was
more like them so i'd have the same ideology that ateneo is my dream school. but
no matter how hard i try and even if there are these
eight strong premises pushing me to go for admu,
it will never be.
i don't know what i want anymore.
aika is meant to stay in up. but her heart will always be in ateneo. if only there was this school that was the perfect combination of everything that makes both up and ateneo wonderful schools. if only..
i've got one whole sem to mull over whether i should stay in biochem or shift to film and audio-visual communications. both decisions have their distinct advantages and disadvantages. i just hope i make the right one..
i'm not saying this coz i'm shifting already. i'm saying this coz i just do.
i miss you andrew! *sigh*
7:23 PM;
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
ang
weird ng buhay noh?
you like this guy
so much kaya lang may
mahal siyang iba..
ung mahal naman niya,
hindi siya mahal..
parang cycle lang na people are getting hurt over and over again coz of unrequited love..
hindi ba pwedeng ung mahal mo, mahal ka rin?
kelangan ba talagang mahalin niya ang iba AT malaman mong nasasaktan siya kasi hindi naman siya mahal nito?
at this point, i'm
done crying over my unrequited love for you..
ngayon,
nasasaktan ako. sobra.
kasi nasasaktan ka. sana naman makita niya kung gano ka kahalaga, kaspecial, kaunique..
sana marealize niya na maraming taong
ibibigay ang lahat, malagay lang sa posisyon niya..na minamahal mo.
hindi ko na hihingin ngayon na
ako ang mahalin mo. alam ko namang
siya ang kasiyahan mo.
sana lang talaga wag ka nang umiyak. sana mahalin ka rin niya..
the same way i would have if you had wanted me to.
7:32 PM;
Monday, October 11, 2004
yep..i have this
illness. and i don't understand why i continue to hurt myself..reminiscing
does not help. but then again, here i am blogging about it. forgive me. maybe having
this much time on my hands is
dangerous. i am getting more ill by the minute. i
need something to keep me preoccupied. or i'll
probably go crazy over people's sexual preferences..
here is a list of the
10 significant guys (those guys have no trouble remembering and i'd probably still remember 25 or so years from now)
in my life..
(i'm weird..and ill. tsk tsk tsk..)
*the list is according to the guy from way way back to the most recent*
1. Buwi- he's my first major crush that's "real". (i mean, i knew him even if he is PNE's bassist)
2. Emil- this guy was my first crush sa M and the first guy i did something totally crazy and stupid for. (that no one knows about..up to now!)
3. Lean- he's the first guy who made me cry coz he was "evil" or maybe i was just too young to understand.
4. Dennis- the only constant feature of my high school life.
he's the dream to aspire for, the urge to fight for and the reason to still believe.
5. Louie- ex boyfriend. 'nuff said.
6. Melden- such a manipulative and evil guy that i used to like so much.
7. Jet- he's the first guy i liked who is younger than me. he's also the first reason i became a "go-getter".
8. Mark- this guy is the reason i have this
great fear of getting into relationships with bisexual guys.
9. James- he's my first college crush.
10. Ronald (not his real name..si Andrew lang makakagets nito! hehe..)
-he's not one of those "first" guys.
I just know i'll remember him. how can i not remember him? i'm totally crazy over him right now. and i've cried over him countless times too.
(deleted their surnames..mahirap na.)
should get busy..stop moping over sexual preferences..
i need help. or maybe i just need YOU.
11:54 PM;
Sunday, October 10, 2004
akala ko ba ayoko na?
pero bakit pilit ko paring sinasaktan ang sarili ko?
iniiyakan ko nanaman siya sa di ko na mabilang kung pang-ilang beses na..
ano bang dapat kong gawin para tigilan na to?
ayoko na talaga..
pero ang hirap bumitaw kapag pilit ka paring kumakapit sa wala..
ano nga ba ang mapapala ko sa kabaliwang ito?
wala pero nais ko paring masaktan kasi
siya un eh.
problema..wala naman siyang pakialam..
at sa mga sandaling iniiyakan ko siya..
nagpapakasaya naman siya at nahuhulog para sa iba..
ang sakit..hanep. malupet ang sakit. pero wala kong magawa. kasi sino ba ako sa buhay niya? sana hindi na lang umabot sa ganito..hindi siguro ako masasaktan kung hindi ko hinayaang masaktan ako.
ayoko na talaga. kabaliwan na kaya kung lumipat ako sa ateneo?...
4:27 PM;
Got this from Reinzi's friendster bulletin board post...
1.ANO STUDENT NUMBER MO?
2004-08429
2. PANO KA NAKAPASOK SA UP?
Nag-UPCAT ako..August 2, 2003 ata un..ewan, ndi ko na maalala. basta pinili kong magtake ng hapon ng Saturday at naalala ko pang ndi ako mapakali sa nerbiyos nun dahil dream school ko ang UP.
3.PANO MO NALAMAN ANG UPCAT RESULT?:
nung araw na inilabas ung results, asa bahay pa ko nun kasi ndi ako pumasok. tinext ako ni mia na "good news" daw..so siyempre, ndi ko naman maqualify kung anong "good news" un kaya kinaladkad ko si ate at si kuya mel na pumunta sa diliman. at nung nakita ko ung pangalan ko, napasigaw talaga ako ng "OH MY GOD! MANILA!" tapos nagtinginan sakin ng masama ung mga tao sa paligid ko tapos naiyak nako..hahaha! pathetic!
4.FIRST CHOICE CAMPUS MO BA ANG UPD?:
hindi. UP Manila. ninais kong makaranas ng new horizon..kaya lang ngayon, parang nais ko na bumalik sa katipunan..
5.ALAM MO BA ANG UPG MO?:
hindi. sana alam ko para naman maboost ang ego ko kahit papano..
6.ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?:
first choice ko talaga ang biochem..tapos pharm. pero chineckan ko rin ung intarmed. wala lang..gusto ko lang itry kung makakapasok. siyempre..naconfirm ko na sa sarili ko na "i'm not good enough." pero anyway, nakuha ko ung first choice ko..na mejo gusto ko na iwanan..
7.SECOND CHOICE?:
second choice ko sa manila, pharm. siyempre dahil wala akong self-confidence, ndi UPD ang second choice campus ko kundi baguio..at ang dalawang course ko dun ay bio at creative writing..
8.ANO COURSE MO NGAUN?:
biochem. yep, first choice ko. saya.
9.MAY PLANO KA MAGSHIFT:?
ewan. depende kung anong mangyayari sa 2nd sem. pero kung ndi talaga magworkout for me tong course na to, malamang lumipat ako sa UPD at magtake ng film.
10.RURALITE KA BA?:
ndi. buong buhay ko ay namalagi ako sa qc. ngayon naman, manila.
11.PHI SCI?:
ndi. proud knoller ako despite the fact na pinalilibutan ang buhay ko ngayon ng pisay people..
12.UMATTEND KA BA NG MGA KUNG ANO-ANONG PROGRAMA NG FRESHMAN KA?
oo naman. excited pa ko pumasok nun dahil wala pang ginagawa at ndi pa routinary ang mga bagay-bagay.
13.NAKAPAGDORM KA NA BA?
ndi pa..at ndi na mangyayari to kahit kelan dahil ang aking ina ay napakaprotective at mahilig pang magkaron ng withdrawal symptoms..haaay..
14.NAGKASINGKO KA NA BA?
ndi pa naman. at wag naman sana. dahil pano ko magkakaron ng option na lumipat kung may singko ako?
15. NAGKA-UNO (1.00) KA NA?:
ndi pa..sana naman magkaron ng uno kahit sa kung anong subject lang.
16.HIGHEST GRADE MO?:
uno sana.
17.LOWEST:
haaay nako wag naman sana tres or lower. although may lecheng comsci 10 eh.
18.WORST EXPERIENCE SA FORM 5:
wala pa naman..pero ang weirdo nung dati. ndi ko alam na nagkapalit kami ng form 5 ni kerry. si ma'am valbuena pa ang nakapansin.
19.LAGI KA BANG NAGPEPREROG?:
prerogative ba ito? ewan. ndi ko alam.
20.US, CS:
haaay..sana lang. pero ndi naman ako nangangarap eh. kasi masakit lang umasa tapos wala rin.
21.MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
wala..pero iskolar ako ng bayan. haha..labo.
22.ILANG UNITS NA NAIPASA MO?
wala pa..ndi pa nga tapos ang 1st sem eh.
23.NANGANGARAP KA BA NA MAGLAUDE?
oo pero maliit na parte lang ng pagkatao ko un. kung masyado kong dadamdamin, baka mabaliw lang ako.
24.KELAN KA GAGRADUATE?:
2008 kung mananatili ako sa biochem..kung magshishift, depende.
25.FAVE TEACHER:
si ma'am miciano! hahaha..*whatever aika* si prof sumalapao nung teacher pa namin siya..at si sir nuestro pala sa pe..masaya siya kachikahan.
26.WORST TEACHER:
wala naman..pero ayoko talaga ng comsci. no offense sir betan. mahal ko po kayo!
27.FAVE SUBJECT/s:
comm..(hehe!) at Math 17 noon.
28.WORST SUBJECT:
comsci talaga. it's not the teacher. mahina lang talaga ako sa ganyan lalo na ung javascript..hehe. sorry partner..
29.FAVE LANDMARK SA UPManila:
ung lady med sa pedro gil..
30.BUILDING?:
GAB? dahil marami kaming subjects dun? pero mas trip ko parin ang maghangout sa corridor ng RH 119 eh..
31.FAVE KAINAN:
ewan. wala. sa kahit saang maisipan namin ni harry na magdate.
32.ESTUDYANTE BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
naglalakad lang ako pero kapag sumasakay ng jeep, ndi. kasi naaawa ako sa driver.
33.LAGI KA BA SA MAIN LIBRARY:?
hindi. dahil sobrang tahimik na, ang init pa.
34.NAG-S.A. KA NA BA?
ndi pa..at wala rin akong balak.
35.ANO MASASABI MO KAY OBLE?
astig ang nirerepresent niya. at ang ganda ng katawan. hehe..
36.MAY ORG/S KA NA BA?
bcs..at supposedly volcorps rin ako. plus nirerecruit ako dati sa anakbayan at lfs..
37.FRAT/SORO?
siguro kung magpopolsci ako..
38.NAPANOOD MO NA BA ANG OBLATION RUN?
sa tv..pag binabalita. pero ung live..ndi pa. mas masaya ata ung sa diliman eh.
39.NAGPUNTA KA BA SA INFIRMARY NUNG MINSANG NAGKASAKIT KA?
may infirmary ba sa upm? sus..iinom na lang ako ng afebrin..
40.MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?:
meron. isang taga-AS, isang taga-pedro gil..
41.BF/GF?:
wala eh..constant ka-date. harhar..:P
42.MAY BALAK KA BA MG-MS, PHD?
kung itutuloy ko ang course ko, baka. pero kung magfilm ako..ndi na. magtatrabaho na lang ako sa abs-cbn. hehe.:)
43.ANU-ANO ANG MGA PE MO?
bowling! hehe..masaya..nako. next sem, baka fpf kami..
44.KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOC NYO?
ok lang..masaya naman kami. pero sana mas bonding.
45.BOMOTO KA NA BA PARA SA USC?
ndi pa..pero iboboto ko si james!!! hehe..
46.MAY BALAK KA BANG MAGTRANSFER NG CAMPUS?
depende sa magiging ending ng second sem ko..
47.MASAYA BA ANG FEB FAIR?:
well..masaya ung sa diliman dati. ewan ko lang kung meron niyan sa manila.
48.NAKAPANOOD KA NA BA NG GRADUATION?:
UP graduation? ndi pa..dapat pala pumunta ko dati nung kay kuya mel.
49.MEMORIZE MO BA ANG UP NAMING MAHAL?
haha..kahiya-hiya ako. ndi..
50.NAGSASUMMER KA BA?
kelangan sa biochem..pero depende nga kung itutuloy ko tong course ko.
51.NAKAPERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
haha..oo. sa comsci. harhar..at wala nang iba.
52.ANO AYAW MO SA HELL WEEK?
as of now, ok pa naman ung exams..mas nakakamatay para sakin ung papers.
12:09 PM;
Saturday, October 09, 2004
seeing his blog made me cry. literally cry. and up to now while i'm writing this, i'm still crying. ok..what's wrong with me? well probably coz no matter what i do, it seems like i can never be good enough for him. liking him is killing whatever is left of my ego. and yes..my sanity is fading away to non-existence.
i thought dennis was the only almost impossible reality i'd meet in this world. then i just had to stubbornly pick UP manila as my first choice school. then i just had to pick that course that doesn't seem right for me at all. then i just had to go to that so-called concert. (yes enya..you were worth it and so much more..everything else that happened is another story.) then i just had to take that stupid stroll.
now i'm back to feeling like crap. just like when i was in over my head for dennis. at this point, it's useless to hope. for hoping just constantly brings pain. and i don't want to hurt. i don't want to feel. i just want to be oblivious to my misery.
maybe it is pointless to continue feeling this way. maybe there are people out there far more worthy of my tears. or atleast, they make themselves to be. maybe i should learn to appreciate epal guys. maybe i should be thankful that although he's sprained, he rushed after me. and maybe corny, fashionably-challenged guys might just be my destiny..
if they aren't..i'm shifting. new horizons, here i come.
3:36 PM;
Saturday, October 02, 2004
ok..i'm able to write this right now coz i didn't go to bong's debut. i know.
i'm evil. but believe me..if you had to go through that
sh*tty comsci practical exam, you'd feel the same way! added fact that i've got about a
million papers to write. fine..ndi naman milyon. exagg na kung exagg pero seriously, i haven't started anything.
my schedule for next week:
monday, oct 4- math 17 5th dept exam; submission of comm1 final paper
wednesday, oct 6- submission of 3 lts papers; submission of comsci project and exercises
friday, oct 8- soc sci finals; submission of soc sci paper; submission of comm1 revised final paper
whokei..
wala pa akong ginagawa. ang galing ko talaga..hanep.
crammed sh*t nanaman ang ipapasa ko. oh well..
wait..i haven't blogged since? yesterday! haha..so here's what happened to my thursday and friday.
thursday..
i dragged myself over to c. salvador elem school for such a
pointless 3rd time for lts. basically, this zuper ksp kid was
harrassing me. ok, i know, they aren't really exposed to good value systems but then again, the kid was
mean. i mean, i accompanied her to the cr. (which btw, had bowls but the kids literally peed on the floor) and she
threatened to push me so i'd slip all over the pee on the floor. hello??? how
gross is that?
fine..ang arte ko na. but then, it's sad the kids know NOTHING about proper hygiene.
mr. 80 was there by the way. and guess what..he actually called me! haha..this is a first. nakakatawa talaga ang bulok style niya. anyway, two things were different about him. he got sprained..na
inaway pa niya ko for merely asking. AND nagpagupit siya.
siguro naconscious after all the panlalait harry and i did about his hair. honestly, matino pa nga ung hair niya dati eh. haha..oh well. infairness to him, we didn't commute from c. salvador to padre faura coz
hinatid niya kami. naks..
neway, comsci was like any other comsci meeting. and math time, we took the simulated exam. na btw, i
didn't know that cis meant polar form. hahaha..so, mejo how many mistakes kaya ang meron ako? i reviewed about polar form but then, stupid me, ndi ko alam un. oh well..
bago ngapala kami magsimulated..
dream come true. after almost four months, ang
pinapangapangarap ko ay nagkatotoo.
binigay ni james ang number niya sakin!!! i know mejo overdue but then,
does this mean na four months from now, mr. stroll and i will be dating? haha..wishful thinking!!!
neway afterwards, balik as kami ni harry to get mr. sun god's form. aba!
ang kapal ng face..nilagay ba naman sa
three things that scare you..
aika, andrew and their comsci prof!!! haller??? evilness! pero atleast, nakakatawa ung ajino motto hirit niya..pati ung i miss calculated!
tapos niyan, inintay namin ang 2010 na sobrang tagal idismiss..finally, harry and i gave up at nanood na lang kami ng batas militar. infairness,
"date" documentary pala un! harhar..
ang mga pilay pala ay nakakatakbo..wala lang. bagong kaalaman yan! ;p
friday..
ndi ako pumasok ng philo at nakailang tawag sa'kin si harry..yikee! miss ako! harhar..tapos math nako pumasok. ang galing..pinuntahan namin si james, but no.
tulog! yes..ang saya!
nagdate ulit kami ni harry sa popeye's tapos hinunting namin si james and ang 2010. siyempre, ung kay abe pa lang ung nakukuha namin..we still need ung kay jose (oscar look-alike) kay james at kay ate tina.
tapos last discussion na ng soc sci. infairness..mamimiss ko ung subject na un at lalo na ang cute lectures ni ma'am valbuena. *tear*
tapos naman, hinanap namin si james..grabe ah!
tinext pa niya ko kahit walang load..naks! yikee! hahrhar..joke lang. then, last day na rin namin with ma'am mish. infairness,
i really really like her and the subject now.
or baka kasi i'm doing well?..haha! (i'd like to thank sir fermin..salamat po sa training at sa pagmurder ng papers ko with green ink. finally, it's paying off)
tapos nito, dinismiss niya kami early..shux, i'll miss comm1.
pwede bang take 2? harhar..nag-gonuts donuts naman kami ni harry. (yes..date ulit)
nakita kami ng road flattener and mejo nag-jealy siya..i hope ndi magkatotoo ung pics ko.
then..ung
comsci death.
ayun..eto ang masaya kong buhay. hehe..sige, have to wake up early and drag kuya to accompany me to the ortho.
1:53 PM;
Friday, October 01, 2004
wala lang..namiss ko lang ang ocho-uno. :'(
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