Saturday, July 16, 2005
he made me feel irritated to the extent that i just wanted to cry. but as kenn put it, "ibang level ang pagkairita ko sa kanya." so i guess i really am starting to fall for him. and i can't help but feel excited by the proposed plan-slash-bet-slash-set-up by kaye for the two of us.
just when i was just starting to warm up to the idea of the possibility of "us", he just has to deliberately burst my bubble. "bagay kaya kayo.." yeah right. kami? me and the guy i was sort of "using" to contact him? why couldn't he just have said, "bagay tayo"? haaay..nalulungkot ako. sana di matabunan ang "rally memories".
1:33 AM;
Thursday, July 07, 2005
napagtanto ko lang na mahirap pala talaga bumitaw sa isang bagay (o tao) na mahalaga sa'yo. mahirap ito sa kadahilanang hindi ka pa naman talaga handang bumitaw ngunit kinakailangan na. at lalong mas nagpahirap pa sa sitwasyong ito ay ang kawalan ng matinong wakas.
sa ngayon, kahit alam kong kinakailangan na at wala nang patutunguhan ang aking patuloy na pagkapit sa mga pangyayari noong nakalipas na bakasyon, hindi ko parin magawang bumitaw. masyado ko lang sigurong hinayaang maging malaking parte ito ng buhay ko kung kaya't naaapektuhan nito nang matindi ang aking buhay kahit wala nanamang komunikasyon. masaklap pa sa lahat eh kahit na mayroong mga bagong sitwasyong hinahain sa akin dito sa diliman, tila binabalik-balikan ko parin ang nakalipas.
ayoko na. tama na siguro dahil mali na ito. kaso nga lang..asan ka ba para wakasan ito?
11:24 AM;
Sunday, July 03, 2005
my life in upd is GRADUALLY improving..at least i'm a bit more enthusiastic regarding my classes. still..life could still be a WHOLE lot better. promise, next sem, my classes won't suck. and hopefully..i'll be able to shift into BA Film and Audio-visual Communications. *keeping my fingers crossed*
NEWS:CLOSE na kami!!! haha..assuming. sort of. i guess. i just hope he isn't in some kind of relationship right now. coz that would totally crush all my fantasies of hanging out with the badminton varsity/singing ambassador/tibak new "friend" i've acquired. haaay..he's got a lot going for him and i guess i'm not the first girl to notice that. but really, i just want to get to know him better. he seems like such a great person. i'm pretty sure i'd be missing out on a lot if i won't be given an opportunity to REALLY be his friend.
hopefully i could watch his trainings and games..it would give me something to do. after all, my schedule is too free. and it would help me to stop feeling miserable about everything i've left behind in upm..
drama..
POP-COLA IS NOW MY FAVORITE DRINK
8:02 PM;