thursday: i was able to fix my UP papers with Kuya Mel's help! nako..MAHAL NA MAHAL ko na talaga si Kuya Mel. i watched "Can this be love" with Weng and Jaymer. it LACKED kilig scenes..but the kissing scene was DEATH. :P tas i became dr. love with Pola. PLUS guy number 1 and i prayed together.
friday: went shopping with mommy. then i got to talk to Andrew. and i became dr. love with him as well. plus my most recent ex-crush texted. how weird is that?
saturday: kath's debut!!! was REALLY REALLY FUN! gave Kath gcs that i hope she'd use with the right guy. :)
after everything that happened the past few days, i realized lots of things. first and foremost, i realized that a relationship with guy number 1 would never work out. we're far too different. and he has this way of making me feel so dumb and boring at the same time. i feel like i have zero personality and it isn't right.
i also realized that i LOVE guy number 2. i love him as a friend. i feel like my life just wouldn't be the same without him. he's just EXTREMELY fun to talk to. i always have the time of my life when i'm with him. i LOVE how platonic our friendship is despite the fact that we're so close. i LOVE the fact that we have this DIFFERENT relationship from all his other platonic friends.
the last thing i realized is that my relationship with guy number 3 is changing. he keeps on complimenting me. he gets all crimson when i tell him sweet stuff. he and i hang out together more than with anyone else. he got all guilty because he wouldn't go home with us. he gave me a different hug. he told me, "pag-socio tayo pareho, ibig sabihin nu'n.." (he didn't continue and just looked at me meaningfully) i think there are sparks between us. and he DID win the game proving he knows a lot about me. i..i don't know what to think. i think i'm starting to like him again..still, i'm not sure.
uh..i'm confused.
