yep..i have this
illness. and i don't understand why i continue to hurt myself..reminiscing
does not help. but then again, here i am blogging about it. forgive me. maybe having
this much time on my hands is
dangerous. i am getting more ill by the minute. i
need something to keep me preoccupied. or i'll
probably go crazy over people's sexual preferences..
here is a list of the
10 significant guys (those guys have no trouble remembering and i'd probably still remember 25 or so years from now)
in my life..
(i'm weird..and ill. tsk tsk tsk..)
*the list is according to the guy from way way back to the most recent*
1. Buwi- he's my first major crush that's "real". (i mean, i knew him even if he is PNE's bassist)
2. Emil- this guy was my first crush sa M and the first guy i did something totally crazy and stupid for. (that no one knows about..up to now!)
3. Lean- he's the first guy who made me cry coz he was "evil" or maybe i was just too young to understand.
4. Dennis- the only constant feature of my high school life.
he's the dream to aspire for, the urge to fight for and the reason to still believe.
5. Louie- ex boyfriend. 'nuff said.
6. Melden- such a manipulative and evil guy that i used to like so much.
7. Jet- he's the first guy i liked who is younger than me. he's also the first reason i became a "go-getter".
8. Mark- this guy is the reason i have this
great fear of getting into relationships with bisexual guys.
9. James- he's my first college crush.
10. Ronald (not his real name..si Andrew lang makakagets nito! hehe..)
-he's not one of those "first" guys.
I just know i'll remember him. how can i not remember him? i'm totally crazy over him right now. and i've cried over him countless times too.
(deleted their surnames..mahirap na.)
should get busy..stop moping over sexual preferences..
i need help. or maybe i just need YOU.
