i can't believe that the first sem is actually over and that i'm on sembreak right now. it went by too fast as though some things never really happened. oh well..i'm not going to dwell on the horrid details. let's just say that some things are better best forgotten..(haha..steps song. loser.)
we took our last two final exams this friday. the comm 1 final was long, but i guess i did alright. although the outline was difficult. the math 17 exam was alright as well. i just hope my grade would reach my expectations..
i know i said i'm not a nerdox who actually really cares about grades. but then again, there will always always be a part of me that would yearn for "esteem". kaya nga it's part of maslow's hierarchy of needs eh. since we're on the topic of grades, i got a 1.5 in history..ok, i'm happy but i wish i did better.
on to the sleepover. one thing is for sure.
i missed the tianx. i'm missing the tianx. and i will continue missing them coz ateneo will never be the right place for me.
i just wish i could be there. to
actually share their experiences and not just hear about the significant details afterwards. to hang out with them during breaks or have classes with them
instead of getting monthly gimmicks that are far too short.
a
part of me wishes that i was
more like them so i'd have the same ideology that ateneo is my dream school. but
no matter how hard i try and even if there are these
eight strong premises pushing me to go for admu,
it will never be.
i don't know what i want anymore.
aika is meant to stay in up. but her heart will always be in ateneo. if only there was this school that was the perfect combination of everything that makes both up and ateneo wonderful schools. if only..
i've got one whole sem to mull over whether i should stay in biochem or shift to film and audio-visual communications. both decisions have their distinct advantages and disadvantages. i just hope i make the right one..
i'm not saying this coz i'm shifting already. i'm saying this coz i just do.
i miss you andrew! *sigh*
